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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 05:16

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

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I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

She married twice! .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

She was in good health!

He knew the spot.

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My mum and dad in the seventies!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

When she asked me how she looked .

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But it wasn’t much.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

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I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

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I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

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I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

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Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

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I will be 64.

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Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Ive learnt so much.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

It was going to be , some day.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

We were not on the streets..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

And who doesn’t know suffering?

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

So, i spoilt her more .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

But ive been too sick for many years..

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I was scared of men, in general

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

(And it was in our own minds.)

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I write beautiful poetry .

Why did i forgive my father ?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Who then, do I blame.?

But, we were locked up after school.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

One cannot live in the past .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Was to survive, this bastard.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He resisted the act ,that day.

I never cut or harmed myself..

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

We all went to grammer schools

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I was very sick at this time too.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I was seconnd youngest,

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Especially a lifetime of it.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I have no regrets .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I said to her

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

My life is so biszare .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

So whats the point in blame.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

This is soul school!.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

My family never makes their pension either.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

She wouldn,t have been !

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I waited trembling.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I think the readers, may guess!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I don,t even have a pension.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

And i lived it daily.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

As i do to all so called friends.?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Im still living with it.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Would this be the day?

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She found it foreign!.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I was 9 years of age.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

All the time i was locked up.

Put me off passion for life!!

She loved him until the end.

Comes on , in middle age.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

What did i know ?